Monthly Archives: June 2006

Welp…so I kinda have been playing http://horizonmll.com/riseagain.mp3 on repeat for the past 3 days…:-)  And thats really become central to my theme.  “There’s been awful pain althrough this rain….made it to a peaceful place. I know..I will make it again…..see my conscienceness is bright and clear, standing tall and have no fear at all.  See […]

See….what if….

Fear So it is a powerful force.  I think since about August of 2005 I’ve allowed it to control too many of my actions.  Too much of myelf has been hindered to fear.  Fear of love, fear of the lose of love, fear of growing up, fear of depression, fear of losing my foot hold […]

Today I got something that I havent had with Brent….at least not in my mind…..   Closeure. I love him, I respect him and I agree with him on most of the points we discussed in length.  It is time to start a new chapter in life and build upon the positive changes made while I […]

Good God in heaven.  Is this ever gonna pass?  I can’t sleep, I check my email everyday wondering if Brent is trying to talk to me.  Sure I told him leave me alone…but I figured if he really “loved” me he would ignore that!  lol….:-)  Honestly…the lol isnt true…I’m not laughing.  I hate that I dont […]

Funny thing actually.  You know how I added a boyfriend application to my web site?  Well…I noticed an unusual amount of traffic hitting my site today and found that the main phrase that brings people to my site is “boyfriend application” on msn.com.  Seriously….if you type in “boyfriend application” you’ll land on my site … […]

    I need to know that something extraordinary is possible.  For now all I can do is hope that it is…

Friends only here….I want to tell ya something a few others already know…. I am going in sane.  I mean that literally.  Flor instance last night as I was going to bed I heard them talking to me.  I thought to myself….oh God here they come for me.  They aren’t real.  I already talk to […]

So the bad day yesturday was begun at 7:40 am when I hydroplaned into a car that had darted out of a parking space along 2nd street.  This was annoying.  It was then compounded when I found out I had a flat tire as I left work…I suppose due to the glass.  So that cost […]

So lets get this out before I sober up….convo in the car…. (FYI I HAD A BAD DAY….BUT WHO CARES RIGHT?) Matt- I just hope that brent becomes the knight in shining armuor. Friend 1:  Matthew, be realistic…focus on “XYZ” boy he likes you and that can work. Its most likely true. Lets face it.  […]