So I emailed someone how I felt they treated me and told them I wouldn’t try to talk to them until they told me they could treat me as well as they would a stranger. 8 or 9 weeks now and every time I think of messaging them I remember they never said anything.I did […]
today I feel alittle a kin to the movie American Beauty.
40 but I’m still learning, this conversation with an ex ….less about him, more for me cause I was realizing it then…thats my face when I grew just a bit more determined and optimistic that its out there. specifically…. No you got josh who you also made out with and swapped nudes like you did […]
“If you repeat a lie often enough, it becomes accepted as the truth.” ―attributed to various sources “Some people try to be tall by cutting off the heads of others.” —Paramahansa Yogananda I Realized Truths In The Last Month That Destroyed Cody Baxter If he sits next to me and ignores his Grandmothers calls […]
So a friend offered over conversation a week ago that my most recent ex was a sociopath. I was like no, and he was like youre thinking of a psychopath this is different, and in the last week I think hes right. He doesnt mean to be cruel he just doesnt see how making plans […]
First a song for Justin. I think I finally got what he meant through this song. He did try and he did build a home with me, gave up what he had in Chicago all on the chance of us. To live though, we had to die. I hope he’s living, really living. Just the […]
“Its always better to have bet on someone you loved rising above it and find you’re wrong than to bet on them disappointing you and see you’re right.” – Me So I have to say that I’m pretty distressed in myself, but I at least know I gave it time and again the chance to […]
> The big news flash here is I plan to utilize these funds and my energies to move on from Louisville. I don’t know the dates but this isn’t where I belong, and everyday I feel it. So Matts Good News My feet dont touch the ground. So 2018 has been a rough year for […]
I’ve described my ideal “partner” as “reliable” several times now. That if ya dont know when you’re going to see them again, and if they cant commit to plans with me then how can I plan on anything. Relationships even friendships are built on shared experiences. Doing things…its just a psychological fact. Taking your dog […]
Oh I forgot to mention since I have 15 yrs of ramblings I’m gonna look into publishing it through Amazon. 🙂 This journal that is…. The Book of Matthew. on my coffee table.